Super Tobz Adventures

Changes for the new year? 2008

2008-01-01T07:25:00.000-02:00

Hello people out there reading - do you actually come by to check this? :P

Well, first off, happy 2008! Honestly speaking - it has been one of the most calmest new years celebration - minus the time I had in Asia last year, when I was just sitting on my hotel bed, flipping through new years channels and not understanding what was being said in Chinese! Truthfully also speaking - I wasn't looking forward to 2008, when I was pondering a lot in 2007. I'm not sure why?

But I know lots will change once again - silly for me to even state it - there's ALWAYS change happening, especially through a years time! I'm feeling excitement to the coming year - but still a bit hesitant. Will the year fly by like flat plains? Or will there be new mountains to climb? A lot of walls to tear down? A new improvement to lifestyle?

My new year resolutions - is to drink more water, (8 glasses!!!!) and to sleep more. Heh, sounds like normal stuff? Sure is - but sadly, these two challenges are ones I face to be the most difficult for me!

but reminder again (I think I have posted this in a post longggg ago) Time is like money - be careful how its spent - to the minute and second.

Well, I will wait. At the same time - learn how to get ready!

Sister is getting married in less than a week~ wowie!

A new start!

2007-09-22T16:18:00.000-02:00

Wow, what another exciting update - I GOT HIRED AT A NEW COMPANY!

Which company? Cohos Evamy!
I know probably most of you haven't heard of this company before ...
but it's an architectural company!

YES! Beautiful projects to work on! They've accomplished in designing amazing buildings! Here is their eye candy website:

http://www.cohos-evamy.com

My life is gonna change! When I went to their office for an interview - their office is breathtaking!! Makes it my dream company!! I'm soooooooo thankful - God's just amazing ... He is so Good!

September 3, 2007!

2007-09-03T05:26:00.000-02:00

Wow. Long time! Not that I neglected this blog - but after it was being difficult about requiring you to get a google account - I had no desire to post! Alas, recently I stopped resisting and got a gmail account. :P

Anywho - after graduating and all and starting new things - I guess I've found my inner side a little more with more chance to think and sort. So maybe I can push myself to write more.

Updates: I got a car recently! I got wheels! Wow, finally! God really let me choose a gooder. I'm very thankful for my Hyundai 2007! I'm working two jobs - and paying off past loans and etc. Pretty busy still - but it's more comfortable.
Things at Truth Baptist has been great - the stories that are exchanged are just wonderful! People are totally growing - me included of course - I've been on the observant side. Ian just got back from a trip down in Edmonton - only a year left of school for him ...... almost! Crystal's upcoming wedding is coming real soon - excited for all the preparations and planning!

September .. doo dee doo! I love this month - it's another restart of beginnings and setting goals. One goal that's shouting in my heart - more quietness! More time in meditation and learning. :)

well,

2007-02-21T12:50:00.000-02:00

anger gets harder every time.

I hate it.

CAMPER SHOES!

2007-01-21T05:41:00.000-02:00

I am CRAZY for Camper Shoes! (no, not for camping)

I want the ergonomic ones! Another generation from those ugly Crocs?
I'd choose Campers over them ANYDAY!

*drool*

Here's the site: http://www.camper.com

Look for WABIS or check out their Foodball! Amazing! And Casa Camper!

Wong Way ...

2006-12-23T13:59:00.000-02:00

Hello. Today, are you going the Wong Way?

Hehe ... well I'm going to a way ... on Christmas Eve I'm going to Asia!
HongKong, Malaysia, Singapore, Japan!

Woohoo! First time overseas! How exciting!
Hmm .. but ... guess what? I don't have money to spend! I can't even pay off loans this coming semester.

Oh why oh why ... to see the world you need $$.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!!

Just one of those days ...

2006-10-15T06:14:00.000-02:00

Just one of those days ...

when you're up late, knowing that you're supposed to sleep, kinda tired, but ... just want to keep awake because you just feel like you want to do something?

And then - don't know what it is? Something ... with lots of anticipation involved, something new, something inspiring??

I wonder if my mind is playing tricks on me hehe ...

Maybe answers will come in a dream ...

When .. ?

2006-09-30T02:17:00.000-02:00

The Samaritan Story. I'm guessing that 4 out of 10? people know this story, for it's morals and teaching reaches out to many different kinds of people. And the moral is this: Help out your neighbor, no matter the social diversities or if your reputation is at risk.

So today, with our Path to Eternity (Evangelism Group) we decided to go to North Hill Mall and do some walk up evangelism. In my story, I so happened to sit beside this Chinese guy who looked like he was waiting for someone - probably for a friend to finish shopping or whatever. He looked like he was in his mid 20 approaching 30, skinny, tall, glasses, harmless, etc. I was there and he asked, "Are you Korean?" And this isn't unusual for me - I've had lots of people guess a wrong ethnic background for me. So when I just said I was chinese, he said he was too, and then a conversation starts. He tells me he's from Ontario, here for only a little while, but with no place to stay for the night. I look at his belongings - he had a huge huge backpack with a big red book bag beside him, with a Chinese magazine and other pieces of clothing. He didn't look like he was like he was from the street, and that he just was some normal man waiting. He pulls out his wallet and shows me his ID - at that there was to show me he was from Toronto. He continues on about a whole lot of other things (he went to university before blah blah) and he for some reason BLABBED ... just didn't stop talking. So there I was fiddling because I had tracts to give out - and was going to try to steer the conversation to spiritual matter - when he says, "So my friend just sold his house - for half a million dollars!" I was like, "Oh wow! that's good for him ..." and then he continued on about finding a place to stay ... and that he'd be leaving on Monday. We was willing to pay 20 - 30 bucks a night (guess he didn't have that much money) He also said he went to church and fellowship in Edmonton and Toronto ...

So I offered to call around for him (being skeptical in mind knowing I probably won't be able to find anyone) and when I was doing that, Ian continued talking to him. Questions continue to be asked ... and apparently the guy was actually here in Calgary for a Court Case ... and when being asked what that case was for - he said he barely got out innocent. He had spent a lot of money getting a lawyer, ($200) and had only $400 to spend this weekend. There was a plane ticket for $400 to get him back home today, but to make it cheaper, he took the Monday plane ride home for $200. Ian tells me that he'd be willing to spend $200 for a decent place to stay - but wait a second, $200 + $200 = $400 ...so he's not saving at all! Mind as well just take that plane ticket home tonight! That didn't make any sense at all ...

Either he wanted to save money (by being 'lucky') or not wanting to get home so early ... So Ian suggested the Cecil since it's $14 a night? (*cough cough - what the - Cecil??? prostitutes, druggies etc.?!?) but he was getting antsy about this guy's 'court story' and we don't know the cause of his crime ...

So I dropped trying to look for a place for the guy (I have a friend that was actually willing to lend his place - WITH his family for the weekend. You're a super nice friend btw, but I felt bad for almost giving this stranger a chance to be staying over at your house!) Even our chaplain who was with us said a big "NO" to this.

So yeah, in the end - we lost interest in helping this guy because of his story and all the other things leading up to it .........

and we just hope the guy's able to find a place, and return home on Monday.

But .... but ...

God? Did we do the right thing? Was he telling the truth? We weren't really the samaritans in this case - but we felt our safety was something to consider ... and it kept us from doing the full good deed. Well, I'll pray still, for him ...

What do you think?

Zippity.

2006-08-30T02:35:00.000-02:00

"With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be."

James 3: 9-10

So ...

2006-08-24T14:18:00.000-02:00

A new year to begin (of school) as of this coming Monday.

Am I ever excited. I love SAIT, I really do. There's also the start of other exciting things as well.

However, aside from all of that and with something else, I am starting to get turned off, and it concerns me.

Lord, what should I do?

Oh, and I bought a laptop the other day, saved 100 bucks! It was about $850, for an Acer. I have neverrrrr heard of this brand before. *shrug* o well, it's still eye candy for me!

"Blessed be the name of the Lord, blessed be your name!"

and may the Evil One be bound in Jesus' name too.

Whoooooooosh.

2006-07-15T02:18:00.000-02:00

*ding*

Wow, hello. How come this blog looks slightly familiar. OH HMMM may it be that it's been a super long time it's been updated? Ha! Super Adventures ... maybe I've been having so many of them, I have no time to blog them all. *sigh* No, I only wish.

So it seems so that I've been sick for two months. The whole time I've been at my summer job. I love my summer job. Really do. Loved how the first month I hardly did ANYTHING! I sat there and read about my company .. whoopee doo. I really found it was a true blessing, as God had blessed me with great people to work with and fitting tasks. How am I to honor Him back? I wonder about this. I thought, perhaps with what I've been making with this job, to offer it back into good works or what God has planned for glory to His name ... hmmmmm. But there should be MORE. More excitement, more planning, more of desire to be WILLING.

It's definitely been a rollercoaster these past two months. Wowie, probably the most packed two months I've ever had. Thanks to my Superman though, each day was worth it :) Praise the Lord for how God has shown me more of his creativity and the things I've learned! I, for once, have realized that I need to ... NEED to grow up. Caught in many childish acts, through some hard hitting ends and cleared paths, I've gotta get outta my bubble.

Thanks Ian, for being with me through these two months ... there's so more to come. ^^

Updates?

God's definitely put a passion for evangelism in my mind, I hope it travels to the heart. :) Studying the Case for Christ with Sait's Chaplains and Ian has really challenged my thinking towards my view and personal understanding of Christ and who He was and is ... and is to come. ^^ There's a person in mind for sharing to, may we continue to pray and act with the Spirit!

My sister moved out ... *gasp* hehe ...
I've actually got the chance to drive on the highway *gasp* :P
MUTEMATH IS COMING TO CALGARY WITH THE VANS TOUR AND I CAN'T SEE THEM! ARGH! (July 20th)
I'm going to Cirque du Soleil in October yayyyyy!
Going to CHICAGO in a few weeks for a company trip!
I might have IBS. ((reason why stomach hurts ... hush shhh no one's to know what it is hehe, just don't stress me out! harhar))

I shall hope to blog more ............. need to stop and reflect more. Reflection is good to do.

My next grab ...

2006-05-06T16:25:00.000-02:00

Starfield Starfield Starfield ... !!!

Hey, anyone check out Art Central, right by Centre Street downtown? It's amazing! Grown so much! So much to check out ... the best time is to go is on "First Thursdays" The first Thursday of every month ...

Be sure to check it!

Happy Day

2006-04-21T10:18:00.000-02:00

Thank you Lord for today.

One of those days ...

2006-04-17T03:13:00.000-02:00

Don't you just having those days ... when you just want to be away from people, but do want to be around them at the same time? You're torn between the two, and then there's just that uncomfortable feeling of anger ... but you don't know why or what it is, or who's it towards.

Then you come to a conclusion, it's being angry at yourself. Then you get really sad, to the point you want to just cry. But if you were to provide a reason of why you are crying, you almost want to say you are crying for nothing, you just feel like doing so.

Then it's anger at our sinful nature. Ever have that feeling? Just mad at the times when you do wrong and you know it's something you could avoid, but it just happens. Then that humbling time of knowing you have to change. But you just don't want to!

It's the tug a war of the inbetween ..

and you know your heart is just at conviction ..

and you just don't want to admit it!

argh!

sun sunshine shine !

2006-04-10T02:39:00.000-02:00

It's nearing the end of a magnificient year woohoooo!
I'm excited for Easter this time around too, God's been awesome.

Been listening to lots of Ok Go and Trip-Hop lately and house music, Plumb and Shawn McDonald! woohoo!

I've been checking out "Metric" too, seems like they are the new hot thang.

Still keeping this analogy in mind: "Chase for God as hard as you can, fix your eyes on Him as your main treasure. Then, while you're running deep, take a look over your shoulder and see who might be running right alongside next to you." Keep that in mind, for you out there ... looking for a life partner ...

Gonna be newww experiences next month, starting an actual job. Hmm which reminds me I have to contact them soon ... gooo Kiewit!

Friendships are just grand right now, such a blessing :)
And the sunshine too!
and how My Father is so creative ...

WHAT .. !?!?

2006-04-05T11:01:00.000-02:00

http://people.aol.com/people/articles/0,19736,1179866,00.html

Paris Hilton to act role of Mother Teresa?

WHO came up with that idea!?? A lot of people thought this was a joke ...

Words ...

2006-03-20T03:58:00.000-02:00

hey! try out my picking words puzzle thing.
don't worry! it doesn't require you to type in your email or whatever. Just your name and that's it! It's interesting, make one for yourself!

http://kevan.org/johari?name=SuperTobz

Oh yeah! Family and I are moving soon! Up to Royal Oak! :)

Shawn MacDonaldddd

2006-03-07T20:53:00.000-02:00

<3

Whoohoo! Finally!!
I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it!

"I wanna be ready"

Yes indeed.

Haven't updated ...

2006-03-05T04:05:00.000-02:00

... in how long? It seems like a monthly update is being a trend here ... hehe. Not that there's nothing interesting happening in life! There always is, mmm but I guess I'm just not around to blog it all haha! What's with me and words, I always find that I can't communicate out my thoughts the way I'd like them to turn out. But I guess there's lots of other people out there that could relate too, yes? Anyway, I just found a whole bunch of bloggers that I could add for some linkage. Their pages are a LOT more interesting than mine here! Go click on them! :)

Well as for an event that's going on for me ... I'm interesting in trying out for the 'donor appreciation monument competition' at the moment. Sait is looking into taking away a bunch of trees and replacing it with a significant monument that people could meet and gather or admire. There's no theme or anything, totally opened up to imagination, and just really open to anyone! The grand prize is 5 grand which is quite nice, but I think it's a cooler prize to be able to design something that will be probably around for the next 5 decades! Neato! So yeah, I've been busy researching and sketching away, and looking deeper into Architecture ..

I think this confirms that I will be picking a Structural Major ... sure Piping makes the moola, but if it's gonna bore the junk outta me? I rather stick to Structutal Drafting. :)

Oh, and I'm also anticipating for March 7th ... SHAWN MACDONALD'S NEW CD! Ripen!

*big grin*

Let Go, Let God

2006-02-08T06:09:00.000-02:00

"Faith like a mustard seed, can move mountains."

When was the last time you really stepped out in faith, and gave it all to God? I think this is a cliche question that many Christians have asked each other. Are we reading between the words here? What does it really mean?

Today, it meant to me that to fully let God do His work, we step back. How back? All back. Today, I left a friend, because God convicted me that the type of witnessing I was doing was not really the right thing at the moment. I was trying to do things my way, trying to hide away hindrances. But no, when waiting for that child, Sarah and Abraham in Genesis tried to do things their way, which was getting their servantgirl to have Ishmael for them. But what was that result? And what happened because Sarah laughed, and didn't believe? Resulted in some bad consequences later on. But it was because humans had tried to do things on their own. Their own way.

Why do we tend to limit such a BIG and INFINITE God? Who created all, gave all, and planned all? Why the heck are we trying to butt our way in and think it'd be better? God doesn't need us to do His work. So today, I've decided to throw off those hindrances, and because "You are in a great cloud of witnesses" and running to a goal. I've found out that I've been one of those hindrances. So, for my friend's sake, I decided to leave. And to let God take care of the rest.

I'm praying I'm praying ....

sigh

2006-01-27T06:57:00.000-02:00

May the blind man see...
and for the people who see ....... get glasses!!

RAWR. Such frustration.

May God open this person's heart today.

*sigh*

and make mine chill out a bit, to take it easy ..... whew.

11 Hours ..

2005-12-21T04:12:00.000-02:00

Hmm the only thing that concerned me, at the end of my 11 hour shift was ....

"Muslims can't eat skittles if really religious"

Say what --!!? That really sucks. They can't have anything that contains gelatin, if 'really religious' And so I asked my co-worker, so what makes you really religious and what not? By all the practices and rituals ... hmm ok ...why be religious? So you can get to heaven. So what determines your level of religiousness? Is there a guarantee that you'll get to heaven? His answer: "No."

That kinda sucks, not knowing if you've done enough to be accepted. How religious can you get? I would think it'd be endless stress and worry ....... and to think people concentrate on the 'doing' so much, there is no relationship.

Glad I don't have to go through that!

Also, when I get home, I turn on the TV, and there's this special feature from Barbara Walters ... on "Heaven: Where is it?" It was actually REALLY good. She went to almost all religions or spiritual people and asked around ...
Anyone else see it?

Stupidest Ad ever ...

2005-12-15T15:09:00.000-02:00

I saw an Ad today with illustrated people in wonderful winter coats and scarfs galore and such. The Ad said, "What do you get people who has everything?"
And answer was:
"More of it!" - Get a gift certificate from Marlbourough Mall today .... blah blah blah.

HOW horrible! Yikes ... more of what they have already? That's just trash to me, yikes, that's just incredibly bothering. And if anything, Marlbourough Mall? Great attempt to get more shoppers ... *sarcasm* What is there even to buy?? yikes ... ! Hmm the great contrasts of 'giving' hmm ..

People these days, WHEN can they realize, that the more they recieve of what they WANT ... is an endless list, and they will NEVER be satisfied ... always wanting more and more.

My wish this Christmas, is for people to not look at the materialistic things, but more the thought, the heart, and the things that are more important, especially the REAL reason for the season. Baby Jesus, who came into this world to give the most precious and the only gift people need - salvation and life.

Give someone the gift of knowing Jesus these holidays, I encourage you!

Am I ...

2005-12-15T04:24:00.000-02:00

doing the right thing here? Now how I really wish it wasn't 'me' as the base of this question in 'doing' something, because I've got the harsh lesson from this whole past two years in the horrible mistake of 'me' 'doing'. But why can't I sit back? Why can't I withdraw myself?

It's just something that really draws me in, to the mysterious. I can count of hmmm maybe 4 or 5 cases? Do I really have experience from all those, or is that not comparable at all, because each is really different? I dunno .. *sigh* I really need to wait on good wisdom and discernment. I think today was the last straw though. Holy moly, wayyyy too short of time. What was I thinking. But I hope the affect was only for good.

I don't want mixed feelings, I don't want to play games, I don't want presumptions again. But I do care, really do care. Hope is waiting around the corner ...

On the side note, I GOT MY MUTEMATH CD!! I AM SO EXCITED TO OWN THIS! harhar. and it was only a sweet $9.99. I was even tempted to a second one too. Now why? No clue! Maybe I should gift it to someone ... who would enjoy this great music as well. I am still waiting for Shawn MacDonald ...

And stupid double mean angles, screwing me over for my Surveying exam. They are too mean to me. Mean mean mean. hmm ... where has my brain gone ..

(( perhaps this is what happens, when I am distracted, ... ohhh shoot! ))

WHAT THE - ?

2005-12-02T03:24:00.000-02:00

What in the world ?!?!!?

http://cbs5.com/topstories/local_story_326014939.html

Supposedly, from watching the video, the guy who does maitenance on the church saw the tears rolling down her face 8:30am in the morning, and when he went to go touch the streams of , they were still wet!!?

That's a little freaky.
But no offense, what's even more freaky is just seeing how much these people worship Mary ... hmmm. Like an idol, really.

Hey, I remember posting something else about "Mary" in some one of my early early blog post about white shadow stains? what's up with all this?!

Stealing is NOT cool.

2005-12-01T02:31:00.000-02:00

So ... at my store today, at the mall, some guy stole our display boots. What happened was, there wasn't actually anyone present on the floor ((partially our fault)) because one was on break, I was in the back unpacking a delivery and my manager was helping out two customers.

It was our fur boots, two black ones that was side by side. We think that the dude thought they were a full pair - but actually, they were TWO left feet, as all our shoes only have one side out ((as all shoe stores do)) so ... my manager went to the back twice. The first time coming back out, she saw the two display boots on the floor, near the front at the corner of the becnh ... and so she thought some customer had just looked at them and walked away. She went back to get another size, and when my manager was fetching this guy his size for the shoes, he told the other customer in the store that he'd be right back. My manager came out, he was gone, boots were gone ... and the customer said she saw nothing ((and quickly left .. hmm..))

Amazingly, the guy DID come back ... I guess to check his bank or something ((but then the banks close at 4pm and this all happened at 5... and my manager just simply asked, "Hey do you happen to see some boots on the ground while you were here? Now they are gone." And the guy got all defensive and said, "What, are you accusing me now?" ((but then, my manager didn't even PUT it in an accusive way! ... so that was kinda obvious)) and then he asked how much his shoes that he wanted would cost with tax .. then he stepped out saying he'd return again ... hmmm

Whatever it is ... it was all quite well planned. And for the guy to have guts to come back too, to look less suspicious I guess. He had this bright orange jacket on, very baggy. *sigh* well nothing we can do about it now, because we couldn't accuse unless we saw him steal with our own eyes.

"Well whoever took them can't go very far, with two left feet."

Interview Interviews ...

2005-11-29T17:13:00.000-02:00

So the interview today ...... I didn't really get a chance to say much because the interviewer talked SO much!! I just sat there, nodding, and agreeing to whatever she was saying from time to time. Now what was the point of the interview? jk.

Well all up to His plan ... I just really remembered an important statement: "He loves us not bcuz of who we are, but bcuz of who He is." Now if only job recruitment people were the same ............ *sigh*

Today's mighty snowy and windy ... winter wonderland!
And guess what ... I get to go out and survey ... yes, hold rods on steep hills and listen to the walkietalkie for my partner to tell me when to move.

yayyyy .. but at least I got good music with me today ^^

My Fish Leather Bracelet

2005-11-28T10:54:00.000-02:00

Ooops, so I forgot to post up pictures as to what that customized bracelet looked like - the one I got the guy at the kiosk in Mac Hall to make.

So ... it's green with leaf texture because it symbolizes "growth" ... that IS a fish you see ((not as distinctive as I wanted it to be, but oh well)) and the yellow band symbolizes "sun" but more so "Son" and to 'shine'

It fits a little too big which kinda sucks, but I do see that kiosk quite a lot at Mac Hall, so one day I'll get it fixed. ((It's the kiosk right outside the Black Lounge almost, at the top of the stairs, by the Debit Machines))

MuteMath, Muay Thai

2005-11-25T11:33:00.000-02:00

and ........ Matt?

haha they all sound similar, hmmm
They are my hottest interests at the moment ...!

(( not Matt though, hehe ))

Relient K - I Celebrate the Day

2005-11-25T04:29:00.000-02:00

For you Jon! ((ermm ... I don't think you even read my blog *cough*))

Lyrics below, I decided to post this up - since Christmas is arriving soon .. wowie.

I Celebrate the Day

With this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let you know
How much you've touched my life because
Here is where you're finding me
In the exact same place as New Years Eve
And from the lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I wanna be

And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I'll compare
The things I've felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That you have come to meet me here

To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me
And the hope that
That you give
That you were born so I might really live
To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me…

And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever

And I
I celebrate the day
That you were born to die
So I could one day
Pray for you to save my life
Pray for you to save my life
Pray for you to save my life

Identity?

2005-11-19T05:30:00.000-02:00

"We talk about the second coming ... half of the world hasn't even heard of the first." - Oswald Chambers

So that was quite the eventful day ... Friday morning to struggle out of the house, ACAD show visit in the afternoon, exam for 3 hours, stupid fire drill, then booking it over to Impact, then back to SAIT for some preparation of the stuff we were giving out to the homeless, then back to church for prayer and book study, then Timmy's, then finally back home!

But I had some good time for devos ... actually, today and yesterday has been the rollercoaster for me, but yet again, do I ever learn SO much.

so Carly talked about Identity today during Impact, and I was really encouraged by some of the things that were mentioned. Identity was not tied to anything that affected you externally, but as being the clay, letting Big Daddy being the potter. Don't let other things define you. Sometimes we limit our options by just going towards doing something we were gifted to do. But no! We can be transformed, or used in someother way and onto other paths, only if we let ourselves be led by God. God changed people's name in the Bible, eg. Abram, Saul because they had an encounter with Him. Don't set a 'Christian standard' or don't determine your growth solely just on results.

"... what drew me to the love that pursued me..."

Listened to Starfield today, haven't listened to them for soooooooooooooooo long. What still tips me over is "Cry of My Heart" as it says, "What in this life, could mean any more."

To glorify is to magnify ...

Timbits?

2005-11-08T13:18:00.000-02:00

A man walks into Tim Hortons and looks over the menu. It was his first time in there. The timbits looked like a good snack and small enough for a try in flavor, so asked for one.
After eating one, he asked for another.
Then for a fourth one.
Then for a fifth.
Then he asked for many timbits until he ate the tenth one.
He asked the employee, how much do I owe?
The guy replies, "Oh they are 10 cents each."
"Ok," said the man, and dropped a dime in the employee's hand and walked out the door.

Hmmm ... so what's that all about?

It kinda relates to that verse ((1 Corinthians 3:5-9))

Ok, so here's the answer ... the man paid only ten cents for the last timbit he ate, because then it was when he ate it, that his hunger and craving was satisfied. If it wasn't for the first, second, third timbit, then the 10th wouldn't have finally satisfied his hunger. They all contributed in filling him up. ((I wish we could really do that with food, only pay for the food when we're full!))

As so for a non-believer when he comes across the Bible or gospel, or witnessed to by a believer, evangelist. Don't be discouraged when you tell someone about Christ and they don't take it at first. Our role is to perhaps plant that seed. ((as I know you've heard of this before)) But you also could be the one that reaps, or harvests.

Remember that God's work in a person is the conviction part ... just be the second, or seventh timbit for that hungry seeker. Because maybe that person might just need 7 ...

Just some encouragement ... it was kinda neat. ^^

Hello Pillow Hello Flab
Hello Best Friend Upstairs! I think the latter needs my upmost attention than the rest!

Amazing Grace

2005-10-29T03:55:00.000-02:00

Amazing Grace,
how sweet the sound,
that saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost,
but now am found,
was blind, but now I see.

Amazing Race
Amazing Grace

whew! what a night ...
Control my speech, Lord ...

Hallelujah

2005-10-24T14:05:00.000-02:00

Does God ever show His love through friends :D

Matthew 12:36 - "But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken."

Now I shall guard my thoughts and heart.

Thanks Jon Chew, for being a microphone for God's voice last night ^^

I'm not a broken record anymore, no need for repeats ... right? hehe

I found this ...

2005-10-23T05:10:00.000-02:00

saved from a past conversation ... I can't believe I had expressed something like it before. I wanted to look through this stuff again, simply because I was shopping in the mall today, waiting for the time to pass, and this song came up ... it was 'remixed' as most songs are nowadays .......... but it triggered so much emotion, so much memory. It involves 'stars' and 'going out in the city' and 'waiting for the sunrise' ........ mmm ... what a crazy weekend of different dynamic thoughts.

"Just that ... in finding something SO precious, so rich, so rare ... I guess bcuz of my paranoia, I've just been trying to tackle anything that could hinder, anything that could cause it to go wrong.

Bcuz I want it to be perfect. Not dented, tainted, strained...I understand that it's said that, mistakes or mishaps is what shapes something to be all the better. But even just the start of it all, I just want to reach that bliss.

What we have ... sorta requires of us to give ...
to expose
to accept
to build up
to learn
to experience
and also ...
to fall deeper

Sometimes things can be decieving, but that's when trust comes in and steps of faith. But we can't recieve, unless we give. And I know ... from past times, giving and then finding it wasn't the right choice ... it damages. That's where the fear settles in.
The doubt
the hesitation
but with these sort of things, we can't just get spoon fed everything.
We have to ... commit
to submit
to take initiative
and to make it our own.

To seek,
to confide,
and the list could go on ... that's what makes it such a beautiful thing.

Now why would you think I deserve ... whatever higher than I should be. No no, I settle for what's real.

You are real to me. and I trust that you've been real to me."

- Wow. *sigh* One of my more heart gripping ones.

Another one of my very favorites:
"I'm just looking out for you,
cause a tree might come up to you,
and ask to hug you
then if it does,
call me up,
and I'll come down and talk to it first."
"But some trees are ok to hug right away, like a young sappling,
they are bendy - like bamboo -
yea! oh I hope to have that dream some time."

It's interesting ... I think God really caused me to forget these little bits and pieces of things, but why do I must come back to them and remind my memories of them? why why why??

A song I could listen to forever, is Hillsong's "You are my World" <3

Frogs

2005-10-20T13:36:00.000-02:00

Two frogs fell into a can of cream,
or so it has been told,
The sides of the can were shiny and steep,
the cream was deep and cold.
"Oh, what's the use," said number one,
"It's plain no help around,
Good-bye, my friend, good-bye, sad world."
and weeping while he drowned.

But number two, or sterner stuff,
dog paddled in surprise.
The while he licked his creamy lips
and blinked his creamy eyes.
"I'll swim at least for awhile," he thought,
or so it has been said.
It really wouldn't help the world
if one more frog were dead.

An hour or more he kicked and swam,
not once he stopped to mutter.
Then hopped out from the island he had
made of fresh churned butter.

(Author Unknown)

That was from Intercessory Prayer, which I have just started reading again. I hope to finish the book for next week, so I can finally return it to its owner. Something else from it:

"We, on the other hand have mastered the art of one-liners in prayer, and think if we give God a two-hour service once a week, we're fairly spiritual. "Easy does it" might be good advice in a few situations, but for most of life, including prayer easy doesn't do it."

Luke 11:5-13 ... Perseverence in asking ... !

Don't be a drowning frog ...

Expression through words

2005-10-20T02:15:00.000-02:00

I just can't do it anymore ... hehe
Sorry, my blog is temporarily malfunctioning at the moment, there is no input.

I love music. That could be an expression ...
Learning lots and experiencing a lot through these days of drama and dynamics.

Excellent is our Creator of all this; may we Honor our roles on this earth for You, and You only ...

To Get to Know You better ...
Anyone recognize this band that doesn't exist anymore? Hint: They wrote another song called "Masquerade"

Amanda Falk

2005-09-27T03:18:00.000-02:00

makes me cryyyyy. hehe.

"I just want to be a sheep - Ba ba Ba Ba! I just want to be a sheep, Ba ba Ba ba!"

She's truly the most humble girl singer ... she's touched me with the simple love that's expressed through her songs. I can't believe she's so young too? 21 ?? Anyway, such a blessing to hear her at the last night concert. Wow o wow. Once she started singing, 'Small' - kawoosh, there goes the tears. Without hesitation too ... that song unlocks so many things for me. As a whisper in agreement with the song, I sent it as a prayer.

But yeah she explained how she felt so broken one time, and was in this big prayer tent and she was faced down, right into the dirt, crying all the tears she possibly had, and was certainly broken. She didn't tell anyone where she had went, but her dad found her and knelt beside her, arms around her shoulders. He didn't say a word. Not one single word, and he knelt with her, for the next hour until she picked up her dignity and rose. Amanda told us, that with her earthly dad figure, God was able to really show His presence through that unspoken love, that He is always ALWAYS there, placing His gentle hand on our shoulders, enduring with us the pain and hurt.

Amanda also talked about how she wishes there was just one single magazine out there in our society that told the reader that they were accepted, they were beautiful, and that they are worthy. But no, instead we find magazines, tv shows, that constantly, without fault, always throwing out suggestions about self improvement, self gain, self indulgence, makeovers, change, improve, improve, improve. Presenting the false state of 'perfection' and trying to disguise the reality, that the fact is, you're never gonna be completely satisfied , especially physically. But not unless we know that God has another, more true definition of beautiful. He loves and seeks for beauty that is eternal. We find beauty in Him, who supplies all full joy and full satisfaction. Most importantly, Psalms 139, He knows every single thing about each one of us.

Every single thing.

What is your single thought today?

Wish I could speak in different languages ...

2005-09-24T14:57:00.000-02:00

but hey, remember, the Holy Spirit can do just that! hehe

(나 무엇과도 주님을 바꾸지 않으리, 다른 어떤 은혜 구하지 않으리... 오직 주님만이 내 삶에 도움이시니, 주의 얼굴 보기 원합니다... )

((oops, I haven't asked for permission to post it, but that's from Choi!))
Seeing Amanda Falk in concert soon! Beautiful beautiful voice ^^

Water Gun Survey!

2005-09-20T22:19:00.000-02:00

Please answer the below questions !! Please be as technical as you can! :P

1. Do you own a water gun? If so, which was your favorite and why?
2. Was it easy to hold? Or was it clumsy to run with it?
3. If you had to design a water gun, what would you have out of the three for its best feature: long range, more water per blast, or more directional control/accuracy?
4. Do you think the tank capacity is important? Would that affect your mobility?
5. What do you think is the biggest fault in water guns?

and bonus question ... hehe
How much would you pay for a gun?

Thank you kindly!

Thigh Masters

2005-09-20T12:55:00.000-02:00

Wish I invented something like that - to work the .... underarm flab. I'd call it the -Flabmaster X 2000-!! What an easy to invent machine ... just get a spring, get rubber cushiony things ...

What this comic reminds me as well was that my dad bought my mom an Abmaster thing ... ON VALENTINE'S day ... GUYS, don't EVER do that! yikes. haha

Maybe I should go back to my researching of water guns. :)

Jelly Muscles

2005-09-20T00:06:00.000-02:00

Wowwwwie. Started going to the gym this week, planning to do it daily ... but ack! Doubt that'll happen, hehe. This guy was nice enough to lead me through some good sets with the dumbells and some weights by cable. Eek, can't even wave my hand anymore, I guess the 'head nod' will have to do for a greeting hehe.

I forgot to mention, the other day, going to work downtown, in front of TD Square ... there were these two guys... singing ....... TFK! The song, "This is a Call" It was very well done! I was rushing off to work so I'm not too sure what other songs they sang after that, but wowww I was so admirable of them. I quickly dropped some money into the open guitar case, but there was a sign saying, "We're not here to ...." Sadly in my frantic rush I wasn't able to read the rest of it ((foolish me)) but I know it was some positive message as to, they weren't performing music just for extra money change in the pocket, but to glorify God ^^ Wow, if I only had talent to play something, it would be really really neat to take worship on the streets.

Sait's doing awesome, getting incredibly tired at the end of the day still! Yikes! Visited U of C today, dropped by Crusade's Office, no one there :( But oh well it was nice to stop by the booth as it is Clubs Week, and got a Life Kit to bring back onto my campus! We might get some ideas for our own little outreach ... :) Oh yeah, stopped by the Leather Bracelets Stand ... with the cool guy in the mohawk making neat things ... I got him to customize one for me! I'm picking it up on Friday, let's see how it'll turn out ... muhaha. Return for a picture I'll post up of it.

Nothing is Sound

2005-09-15T17:31:00.000-02:00

WOW ... what a great CD. I have to really grow into it to really tell you genuinely what my heart feels about it ... that will MAYBE come soon... hehe, depending on how much time I have to listen to it. ^^ but YES! Go and check HMV for the crazy price to purchase it for $9.99!! So DON'T go to CP! What a price difference!

Happy Birthday Lindsey!

Today, was I ever the most miserable or all miserables. My knee got banged up pretty badily. Grades aren't going smoothly as I thought they would be. And I'm just hating money more and more ...............

Chuck out the hate. Where's the love??

My oh my am I ever excited for the Drama ministry for Crusade ... whoohoo! I think God's got big HUGE plans coming right up, oh the anticipation!

For some reason, I would desire to be a cardboard box that just walks around and talks with people. I would be in the most comfortable mood to talk. If I was faceless, does it really make it all that better? What is wrong with my self esteem ...

Reading from Ecclesiates, just brilliant stuff:
"I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live." 3:12 "The more the words, the less the meaning, and how does that profit anyone?" 6:11 "When times are good, by happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future." 7:14

I love that last one.

TFK can rawk!

2005-09-08T04:22:00.000-02:00

Sooooooooo I did end up going to the concert. Yay! Well it was a VERY long concert though, in total maybe 3.5 hours. The special guests took up about more than half! There were four, so it's quite understandable for that lengthy intro. Gaetz Ave, Manafest, Nifty, and StereoTrap.

BUT I must say ... Centre Street really likes to blast and pump up the bass. HORRIBLE choice - because I couldn't hear hardly any of the artists as to what they were saying! It was better when TFK rolled around - Thank God for that! Because what I love best about the band is their melodic part of their punkrock. Also Trevor's amazing talent with the vocals.

So, sitting through the first half was a bit unbearable ... but I gratefully knew all the songs they sang so I could guess/sing to my myself at the same time to enjoy ^^

NIFTY is such a cool guy! Little black guy from Toronto - his stuff almost sounds like Jay-z's. His name stands for "New Intelligence from the Yahweh" ... funky hey? He's such a nice nice guy. But since no one really knew him and he's quite new, there wasn't many people at his booth. He even had this little red siren flashing light on his table too ........ wow what a guy hehe.

I got to get second in line for the autographing. I dropped my CD right before and the case broke. :( But nevertheless, I did get to ask Trevor ((lead vocals)) what TFK stood for. Hehe, his voice was gone so I had to rest my head on the table and listen to his coarse whispering...

Oh, how I love concerts.

Switchfoot - Stars

2005-09-02T03:27:00.000-02:00

Maybe I've been the problem,
Maybe I'm the one to blame,
Maybe even when I turn it off, and I blame myself,
the outcome feels the same.

I've been thinking maybe I've been part of the cloudy,
Maybe I'm the chance of rain.
And maybe I'm overcast and
Maybe all my luck's all washed down the drain.

I've been thinking 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely.
But when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars
There's someone else.

When I look at the stars, stars ...
I feel like myself.

Started looking at the planets, watching entropy and pain
and maybe started wonder how chaos in our lives can pass as say
I've been thinking of the meaning of resistance
Of a road beyond our own
And suddenly the infinite and inpenitent? began to look like home

I've been thinking that everyone, everyone you look so empty.
But when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars
There's someone else.

When I look at the stars, stars ...
I feel like myself.

Took a really nice long stroll out tonight. Did this song ever ring true for me. Coincidentally hey? God's wonderful.

www.switchfoot.com
NEW album coming out Sept 13th, preorder yours at HMV only $9.99 - Nothing But Sound
Go and fetch. Support. Find out how the album questions about if everything's meaningless.

Meaning less?

The Shadow Proves the Sunshine

Got no wheels ... but hey I'd rather fly!

2005-08-31T20:22:00.000-02:00

TOBY MAC in TRANSPORTER 2!!

2005-08-30T22:28:00.000-02:00

Ok ... well he's not REALLY in the movie ... but his music is!! YAY!!! Isn't that awesome? I was so shocked when I saw the trailer for that movie ... wow!! To get his song on the trailer?? that's soooooooooooo awesome!! I can't get over it! I get so happy!! Heehee!

Listen for ...
The Slam near the end of the trailer! :P

click here

If that above link doesn't work, go to: http://speedzone.sympatico.msn.ca/TrailersAndInterviews/ to check it out! :P
It makes me actually want to watch the movie! Hah! I haven't even seen Transporter 1 ..

I REALLY REALLY want to see Aeon Flux too. Wow, what an impressive website ...
www.aeonflux.com

Bitterbuckets.

2005-08-26T02:46:00.000-02:00

Now WHY must I fume over it? I just ask God why in the world I had to come across such a situation, and even on top of my crazy last year ... with all the changes and whatnot ... why must I linger and hang on to the piece I've already torn off? Sometimes I just want nothing to do with it. But hey, I know I blow things outta proportion sometimes ... doodeedoo ... What does it take for vulnerability to settle in?

Yes, does God never make sense, but hey ....... that's all to the big mystery of his perfect plan.

Amen. I had an awesome prayer time though today for campus. May awesome things unfold there... and wow I was at school from 9am to 9pm today. Super keener no?

"Do everything without complaining or arguing ... " Phillipians 2:14

White Ninja Comics

2005-08-17T06:06:00.000-02:00

This one is for Flo ... teehee ... !

picture picture!

2005-08-17T03:29:00.000-02:00

Yay! Jon Chew finally sent pictures ... below is one of the funky shots we took with his amazing CELL PHONE... and look! It's me in three different places! harhar

Panoramic? Is that how you spell it?

True, or IS it?

2005-08-16T05:50:00.000-02:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Wow ... that 100% cheating thing. YIKES. Tis not true.

Speedy ...

2005-08-16T05:01:00.000-02:00

is this Eliica ... hehe I watched the Discovery Channel today ((on a treadmill at Sait's beautiful workout gym)) and it was talking about this electrical car that can go at amazing speeds. It can go from 0 up to 100 km/hr in 4 seconds! and break really fast too. Go check it out at http://www.eliica.com
Oh! And this episode was focused on Japan - how it is a big chunk of our future ... with its innovative ideas and crazy things they come up with. Well there was this one feature about this crazy ANDROID that Japan created ... she looks strikingly real, like a real human being and she talks and responds to human movement. THAT IS QUITE FREAKY. Robots .............. they are really coming alive in this future, like the movies ...

Anyway, I'm excited for this upcoming month ... time to wrap up summer and jump into the new semester. Wow, was this past summer ever quiet. Well I guess quiet is alright, mellower times are needed. Has this year ever been a rollercoaster... but hey, like a rollercoaster ride, when you step off of one, you desire to go try it again, for the thrill ........ now do I want a reride?

Talked to a friend that I haven't talked to for a longggggggggggg time. *hint, hello wayne* I love our talks. Quite sparratic, here and there ... but definitely a nice chat. Awesome to have bumped into you again ...

DON'T WATCH

2005-08-12T06:20:00.000-02:00

the movie Wedding Crashers.

It's so wrong wrong WRONG.

Sure, it could be funny, oh but how ugly it feels after watching the movie. I can confess, yeah there's laughter, but it's more the nervous laughter. It's quite the disturbance to my mind and heart how society is so disgustingly sexually driven. Not only they really skew up the value of L-O-V-E as so many people so desperately try to capture ... but I dunno, the movie just degrades so many things! I'm sure a lot of you people have watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith ... and ok I could agree it was an entertaining movie, aestetically pleasing to the eye, etc .... but would you agree that it was deep? No?! Maybe there wasn't a purpose to be deep, but it didn't leave much for me to ponder about ... sorta a no-brainer movie ... like a "yay! that was an awesome movie" other person asks, "well what did you like most about it?" "I liked uhmm ... uhmmm...the action of ......" and maybe that's all that could really be said. ((Strictly my opinion))

But hey if I was to really say things I liked about Wedding Crashers ... I do like Owen Wilson and I REALLY REALLY REALLY got excited over the fact that in the previews, for one of the upcoming movies "Transporters2" the base song for the trailer was one done by Toby Mac!! The Slam song. I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT! Isn't that crazy amazing? It's exciting to know that his songs are going really mainstream, but I do do pray that Toby Mac doesn't get too sucked into mainstream that compromises are made ... I really hope he sticks to spreading the Truth ... and may God work an outstanding plan ...

Anyway, another movie I saw recently was "Elephant" Another extremity of an example of what our society can be or grow into. I'm not too too sure, but I believe it's a movie sorta based on the Columbine Shooting and was only shown in the little cinema theatres, like our Global one. It had an artistic approach, gratefully wasn't too gory, but definitely left a strong graphic imprint in your mind. Shows how hate can really corrupt and take over individuals.

What is our society going to grow into next?

Anyway, what I read recently in my book really could confirm my so called ephipany tonight, that I fully agree with, in the chapter called, "Introduction to Influences" - 'The other area we see a major impact from the media is an even more dangerous one: oversaturation. The first time you heard a curse word, saw a sex scene, or witnessed a televised kiss between two people of the same sex, you likely reacted with some sort of disdain. But the more you are exposed to things that you may consider wrong, the less negative reaction you will have to it. If these subjects are presented in a favorable, acceptable manner, you may begin to accept them as the norm and possibly even decide to indulge in such acts yourself. Our initial reaction of being repulsed by something can change with oversaturation and move us to show tolerance, and, at the very worst, make us approve.'

Now someone could argue that it depends on what you were taught or brought up with when you were small and that depends on how you would react to certain things, but perhaps that's not the point. Guilt and conscience is there for a reason. I really hope somehow people may realize traps temptation brings us to, and start grabbing back to integrity and values ... and escape.

And of course that's tremendously difficult on our own strength. Only with God's can we go towards what we think is impossible, for He makes things possible.

2005-08-11T04:24:00.000-02:00

I have shifty eyes.

Updates

2005-08-10T04:02:00.000-02:00

Soooo I just came back from Vancouver, and wowie was it ever relaxing. For sleeping, I had oodles and oodles of it, and it was quite nice. Riding the BC ferry over to Powell River was nice too, sitting at the front with the fresh breeze and passing by mountainous looking islands. I got to see the Fireworks competition on the English Bay with one of my good friends, laying out on the sand and watching the sky light up in brilliant blaze ... that night was China and was it ever packed for the audience. It was like Red Mile all over again, with people crawling all over the streets in a hurry to find good spots or a good place in getting home. 150,000 was the attendance, I believe, for that night. What I found neat was when the helicopter came by and shone its white search light on everyone ... just like the movies :P
I got some major reading done too, a book that has been waiting a long time to be read ... and a good time to freely ponder. A picture taking time reminded me the fun things you can get outta little things ... something I used to really enjoy ... hehe I'll post them up soon.
Something from a book I am reading at this moment:
"Feeding Your Appetites - Take Control of what's Controlling You!" -Stephen Arterburn
It talks about the distractions in life - aside from physical food, and how they take control and why.
Here's a neat quote:

"Sow a thought, and you reap an action;
sow an action, and you reap a habit;
sow a habit, and you reap a character,
sow a character, and you reap a destiny."
- Charles Reade

Jon Chui and I talked a lot about how this past year has been. For me it's been a lot, for him, I guess he was undecided. Well, the year hasn't ended yet, there's still about less than half left. I know there's a lot in store ... It's kinda funny though, we haven't really changed much at all. He says I've matured a whole bunch, but yikes, do I ever feel like a kid still. But hey, randomizing and spontanety still happens for us both, and being amazed by the things of the world brings us inspiration. Jon's bike is quite the beauty for the price, I'm still needing to get a license for a car ... hehe and I remember how I always wanted to be a biker chick too ... it IS dangerous though ...

SAIT's coming around the corner for me and I'm excited like no other. I did get to see an advertisement for a Christian Club, it's called "Christ on campus" I think? They had an interesting quote saying, "Prayer is not learned in the classroom, but in the closet." At first I was like, "???" But thinking it over I interpret it as the closet symbolizing - 'secret' It's a nice feeling to know that God wants privacy with us. It makes it the more intimate.

2005-07-26T03:01:00.000-02:00

SWEEEEEEEET!!
Thousand Foot Krutch is coming to Calgary again!
Centre Street Church - September 7,2005 for the Great White North Super Tour ........ I WANT TO GO!
http://www.thousandfootkrutch.com

Anyone wants to come jam and mosh with me? :P

Imagine ...

2005-07-22T19:11:00.000-02:00

"How I long for the months gone by, for the days when God watched over me, when his lamp shone upon my head and by his light I walked through darkness! Oh, for the days when I was in my prime, when God's intimate friendship blessed my house.

He is wooing you from the jaws of distress to a spacious place free from restriction, to the comfort of your table laden with choice food.

He draws up the drops of water, which distill as rain to the streams, the clouds pour down their moisture and abundant showers fall on mankind.

Who can understand how he spreads out the clouds, how he thunders from his pavillion? See how he scatters the lightning about him, bathing the depths of the sea.

This is the way he governs the nations, and provides food in abundance.
.... He does great things beyond our understanding.

Therefore, men revere Him, for does He not have regard for all the wise in heart?"

Think of that ......... God woos us.

Hope

2005-07-19T16:10:00.000-02:00

So what does it take to lose hope?
Or what does it take to create it?
There is one thing to pray about an item.
Then there's another thing for you to make only the opposite to happen in what you pray for.

How can God work through doubt?
Perhaps pulling out the impossible.

Chapped Paint?

2005-07-14T05:00:00.000-02:00

A time to repaint?
Chipped paint ain't so pretty, it makes the fence look deserted and forgotten.
Well then time to bask the paintbrush into a fresh tub of paint and to restore its color.
Now how so? A layer overtop of the wrecked? Or the dead paint is stripped first and then fresh paint can be applyed? which is the better?

Obviously, the easier and quickest, is the coating on top.
Like a cherry on top.
It ain't easy as pie.

Covering is only a quick fix.
More bulkier, more burden to carry.
Perhaps shedding to a fresh new start is better.

What makes paint dry quicker?
Sunlight will warm it up, for shade and shadows to hide away in does nothing. So sunshine it will be.

Why is it at the end of the day, you usually feel at your lowest?

2005-07-05T06:02:00.000-02:00

Have You Ever? - Shawn MacDonald

Have you ever wanted to be someone else?
Have you ever wanted to be someone?
Have you ever wanted to reach your dreams?
Have you ever wanted life to be more than it seems?

I have tasted a love so wide
That it stops all my time
I have tasted of a love so deep
That it blows my mind

Have you ever wanted to reach up and touch the sky?
Have you ever wanted to pack it up and say goodbye?
Have you ever wanted someone to care?
Have you ever wanted someone to be there?

He is sweet, He is sweet
What you're looking for
Is my sweet, sweet Jesus
What you're looking for
Is my sweet Lord

Walk looking up

2005-07-05T04:33:00.000-02:00

I remember how I thought it was an AMAZING discovery to realize that it was such a different thing to look up at all times while walking rather than looking at your feet. I do admit I tend to do that a lot, looking at the floor, at the things I was stepping on, where I was going etc. But when ...... you look up towards the sky and walk, it feels SO much better.

I'm strange.

Well I also discovered that, if you want to keep tears overspilling your eyes, or to hold them back, don't look down either. It doesn't keep them in.

So Fresh So Free

2005-07-03T16:29:00.000-02:00

The sun is out. The sky is so blue.

dum dee dum

I am happy with just that.
Dictionary meaning of "Hallelujah": expression of praise and joy.
Keeping it simple.

Wrecked the fence

2005-06-27T18:09:00.000-02:00

so! the answer to that riddle is ...

There is still three birds on the line. That one bird only DECIDED to fly away, he didn't move.

Moral to the riddle: Gotta be careful in what you say you will do, don't keep actions just as thoughts. It takes action to get you anywhere.

So shall I act soon? Hmm ...

No PIcket Fence?

2005-06-22T05:21:00.000-02:00

BLOG TIME! wow, haven't for awhile ... my aching feet might just explain why. Busy busy busy! like a bee ... *buzz*

Well to be short, hear of this riddle, answer posted in next blog:
Three birds are sitting on top of a high telephone wire, and one decides to fly away. How many birds are left?

Two of some very appreciated friends Aaron and Angelo helped solved my mystery of my own this week about my 'no picket fence' fetish. It was a thought started and unfinished, but our conversations help complete my thought. I'm half hearted. Lukewarm. Therefore I desire there to be NO picket fence or divider so that I may stay gray. I don't want to have to choose, I just want to BE. Now the next question is .......... what is it exactly that I'm so undecided about? hmm.

Convocations!

2005-06-08T12:42:00.000-02:00

Happy Convo Sammy ... and congrats on reaching to the finish line woohoo!
I'd like to get a few of those photos ... you looked mighty good yesterday! :)

And to all those other graduates too ... happy celebration!

Rain

2005-06-04T05:47:00.000-02:00

Can't have sunshine without the rain ..
Can't put up an umbrella - you'll block out the sun rays along with the raindrops.

So take in both, at the right amounts ...
and growww ...

needing both the warmths and the tears
in order to blossom

"Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm ............
As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy. " - James 5:7, 11

Wait I will ...

waiting

2005-06-02T19:21:00.000-02:00

... and waiting

Weddings

2005-05-29T03:08:00.000-02:00

Wooh ... so many weddings this summer.

Something I learned from today's:

"It's not about finding the right person, it's about being the right person."

Knee action time ...

Kite hovering high

2005-05-24T13:06:00.000-02:00

Today was a beautiful day.

My boyfriend and I on the hill gazing into the perfect sky with the big fish kite dancing above with the playful breeze ...

Soooooooooooooooooo relaxing.

Thanks Sam ^^

Aussie Rules and Lights

2005-05-20T05:23:00.000-02:00

Just came back from the 'bar' Aussie Rules down by Westbrook Mall. Wow, never thought we had something like that in Calgary. The Dueling Pianos was quite the treat. Dancing and romping on top of chairs, shouting at the top of our lungs and doing little jigs, hehe what a night. I advise anyone reading this to go check it out some night. Bring wild and outgoing people with you, I'm sure it will be memorable. Beats the boredom of going out to our dead clubs, the nightlife scene in Calgary is obsolete.

Anyway, met a whole bunch of Lindsey's friends ... people she knew ever since Elementary. I wish I kept in touch with my kiddie friends, it's interesting how they are still here and when they pass me by I can still recognize them. First and last names. How they helped shaped me so ...

When coming back home tonight, there was a quick glance at the sky and I SAW NORTHERN LIGHTS. Sadly peeking out from just the car window, I didn't see the fullness of it. But were they ever BRIGHT! They formed a rainbow-like shape, with green jagged edges, slicing the blackness of the sky. I've never seen them so extreme before! Soooooooo pretty. The last time I saw them was when I was in Junior High in my best friend's back yard, when we were lying on the grass and on each other's tummies and staring up in the vast night. Truly what a gift of creation.

Talking Donkey?

2005-05-18T02:42:00.000-02:00

Wow ... I really don't know of these stories ... one that I stumbled across today was from Numbers 22: 21-40. Specifically verse 28.

The donkey talked!

Haha that reminds me of Shrek's Donkey. It's an interesting story ... the donkey tries to avoid the angel but gets beaten for it. We humans can be super blind ... hmm I'm gonna investigate the story a little more ...

Anyway, I really think I need to get away from the computer more and I think that goes for EVERYONE that uses it for leisure time. We've got natural CREATION outside for us to enjoy! Enough of the clicking and finger typing and eye strain and bad posture and and .... ((list goes on)) We need more REALITY rather than simulation ... tru dat!

I find it quite odd that there are blogger shirts out. ((seen on main blogger home page)) Do people actually buy them?

I need to take care of my tummy more ... *pat pat* Why is summer becoming so difficult? *sigh*

'Quote'

2005-05-08T06:04:00.000-02:00

"According to an legend, a man became lost in his travels and wandered into a bed of quicksand. Confucius saw the man's predicament and said, 'It is evident that men should stay out of places such as this.' Next, Buddha observed the situation and said, 'Let that man's plight be a lesson to the rest of the world.' Then Muhammad came by and said to the sinking man, 'Alas, it is the will of God.' Finally, Jesus appeared. 'Take my hand, brother,' he said, 'and I will save you."

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2005-05-08T04:34:00.000-02:00

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I got owned by question marks today.

Lost Sheep

2005-05-04T07:25:00.000-02:00

Those who stray my tears fall for
My heart beats drown out to pour
The question marks that float through
Confidence cringes and walls break into two
Frustration at your decisions
Your changed goals and changed visions

Can't hold your hand anymore to your destination
You've chosen a path you've made in your creation
Of direction, of exploration on your very own
The love and intimacy you have thrown
Away or hidden in a box or turned upside down
To allow attempts of getting a selfish crown

Why do you rely on, why do you flee?
What do you expect, what do you want to be?
You can have everything but still miss one thing
Search for an answer, but nothing will bring
What you had, the gift that was given
Why do shy it away, keep it hidden?

He will find you again, but only if you let Him
And tear down your strongholds of doubt and dim
Attempts to find a better way when there isn't any
To find you, the lost one, He ditches many
For He delights in you, and has a plan for your life
Why avoid it, destroy it, and cause more strife?

I will pray for you, for there's only so much I can do
For inner work, for inner freshness anew
Behind the scenes, and on my knees
Ineffably sublime, it will be put to ease
In hope that you will be brought back to the start
Of when you received your First Love to your heart

"What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way, your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost." - Matthew 18: 12-14 NIV

Amen.

No more slugging ....

2005-05-02T05:01:00.000-02:00

and junking and lazing around ...

tomorrow's a new start for the transform ...

let's see what the outcome will be!
on my knees once again

2005-04-30T04:09:00.000-02:00

I have a HUGE urge to indulge in stuff about design. Oh how I love design. I'm hoping to really get myself deeper in drawings and sketches of structure and composition, all that juicy stuff! Can't wait to sketch again ... !

I WENT PAINTBALLING TODAY. Out in Cochrane. muhaha and I think I only was able to shoot 2 people? I couldn't even know if I did or not, I was quite lost as to what happens when people start pegging everywhere ... got shot in the face mask a few times, the back. But guess what? I was all armoured up! So no painnnnn at all. How wimpy of a paintballer I am. hehe. It was a good GOOD time. ^^ I loveddd the tire maze.

I also have a tummy ache. Need to start the change of things. No more zombie form or blobby. Wheeee time to shape up and eat properly. ;)

Sam, hope you feel better yet again ... and that nasty shot to your neck ... ouch! I'd rather feel that sting for you. See you hopefully soon again ...

Psalm 73

2005-04-28T01:05:00.000-02:00

"Surely God is good to Israel, to those who are pure in heart. But as for me, my feet had almost slipped; I had nearly lost my foothold. for I envied the arrogant when I saw the prosperity of the wicked. They have no struggles; their bodies are heathly and strong. They are free from the burdens common to man; they are not plagued by human ills. Therefore pride is their necklace; they clothe themselves with violence . From their callous hearts comes inquity; the evil conceits of their minds know no limits. They scoff, and speak with malice; in their arrogance they threaten oppression. Their mouths lay claim to heaven, and their tongues take possession of the earth. Therefore their people turn to them and drink up waters in abundance. They say, "How can God know? Does the Most High have knowledge?" This is what the wicked are like - always carefree, they increase in wealth. Surely in vain have I kept my heart pure; in vain have I washed my hands in innocence. All day long I have been plagued; I have been punished every morning. If I had said, "I will speak thus," I would have betrayed your children. When I tried to understand all this, it was oppressive to me till I entered the sanctuary of God; then I understood their final destiny. Surely you place them on slippery ground; you cast them down to ruin. How suddenly are they destroyed, completely swept away by terrors! As a dream when one awakes, so when you arise, O Lord, you will despise them as fantasies. When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with youl you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are unfaithful to you. But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds."

Silence ... ?

2005-04-27T05:30:00.000-02:00

for awhile?

did you have one of those days, where you really can't find anyone to talk to, it's one of those days ....

but there's always the big G-Dawg. hehe .... and He should be the one I'd go to first ..

aww and I just had two LONG conversations on the phone with my two engg girls hehe ... surely He provides ...

CONGRATS AGAIN SAM ............. you are jobbed now! I am still jobless! hehe, really it's SO good to hear about it! Good luck with the first day tomorrow! ^_^

All - nighter?

2005-04-26T04:12:00.000-02:00

THANK YOU LINDSEY! for teaching me a whole course in a few hours. Well half a course? hehe good enough ... hmmm with 50 questions to guess, I can actually make EDUCATED answers. *sigh* I wish I could just go back to watching cartoons to get educated like a kid ... those were the days.

Hmm so I have ... about .. 8 hours tonight. SWEET. Please God, keep me awake tonight, or how much you'd want me to keep up for ... will it be worth it? Oh, I hope so ...

Even though I NEVER have pulled an all-nighter before ...

Take one more stab ...

2005-04-25T19:17:00.000-02:00

at understanding this stuff! Argh ... Mechanics of Materials ... really, this one's my favorite course this year, but then again there's so much to learn and go over before tomorrow!
THEN there comes the organic chemistry ... it will be a big time of memorizing and guessing! Whoo ... yay for retarded exams ...

Thanks Sam for coming by ... happy 3rd ^^

Poppy Seed Creamy Dressing Mmm

2005-04-24T02:42:00.000-02:00

wow! congrats Jackie to your baptismal, I really enjoyed the service!
I totally concur with what was talked about today - about tithing and about the wake-up call about the Mormons who build churches just because they get a lot of the 'mandatory' tithing they get from their people. Really, what an advantage they get in that, even though the tithing isn't true from the heart and genuinely given, yadda yadda. But if WE as Christians invest more into eternity rather than temporary things, imagine all the lives we could reach to? It's not a competition or a question about quantity, of course not! But it's a good time to reflect and really evaluate our lives - are we recklessly splurging? Are we being wise stewards with what we have? Hmmm ... wow God spoke to me today nice and good.

Missed out cheesecake today ... meh, I think I wouldn't enjoy eating at a place I used to work at .. *shudder* The people that work there and I ......... don't mesh in well.

Not much to babble about today .....
Just would like to say this though,

SAM YOU'RE DONE WITH SCHOOL! CONGRATS!
Yay, you're freed up now ... I'm waiting until that next thursday ...
and then after that, no more university for me for awhile ;)

hello sunshine

2005-04-22T12:03:00.000-02:00

ooooheee. Waking up with your tummy feeling like a it's carrying a load of bricks is NOT too good. Now okok, the next thing you could be thinking about is like what Jess said last night, "Need to go home and unload!" Yuck! haha ... anyways I tried to keep up late last night since I was soooo incredibly full, Nick's Steakhouse was just scrumptious. I think the dangerous thing was that I wasn't used to eating so much, since all the studying that we've been going in the last week not much was being consumed, and yesterday was just like a banquet! So yeah, I was trying to digest safely before getting to bed ... poor poor tummy. *pokepoke*

Anyway, while getting ready for school, in my washroom has this high sun window in the ceiling. The nice light blue sky was something nice to see. As I kept really quite though, I could just HEAR the silence from the outside. It's interesting how 'silence' sometimes has a sound hey? Well in nature, it's never silent. It's such a goooooooooood feeeeeeling to know there's so much sunshine just waiting for you outside.

Oh boo, but I'll be kept indoors for like the entire day again.

I wish my textbooks could just talk to me.

Very much appreciated

2005-04-22T03:39:00.000-02:00

I think when I'm really really thankful ... I just pour out so many words all jumbled up that it could just sound annoying ... AND repetitive! Don't you just hate that, when you urgently just want to communicate all that you were feeling at the moment?

Well, what a moment, and I've had so many of those moments today. Thanks so much for the dinner, and the gifts, and the blessings. Now may my words be few ... less is more?

Thank you.

Thank you God, for again showing your love through friends and acts of genuine friendship.

What a beautiful birthday.

Right SuperBear? *nod*

Sweetly

2005-04-21T16:48:00.000-02:00

comes the day ... wow I'm blogging more than I thought I would!

So here sits in my lap is my Super Bear from Sam and it's reading the time off my gorgeous new DKNY watch on my wrist. Yay! Now my Superhero adventures can be on time ... even though it's often randomized! hehe I have now more excuse to REALLY know the time ... I can't stop looking at it :) It's classic and daint, a lovely size and just the perfect fit! Thanks so much Sam ^^

SuperBear matches me and EVERYTHING! He has his super lightning bolt ... awwwww so cool :P

Superbear: As so says my instructions to wash me and keep me asthma free, I am to be placed in a freezer bag, put in a freezer for 24 hours and machine washed cold! Tumble dried low - but watch out, I might shrink! Then I can be cuddled with renewed confidence! What the -- I think SuperTobz will love me anyhow, she wouldn't want me to go through all that nonsense!
*cuddled* We can now go save the day ... hmm now how can I save Tobi from her textbooks ...

To be continued ...

Turning anything into something ...

2005-04-21T14:54:00.000-02:00

... as so this item on the news recently ............... I actually find it quite silly.

http://news.sympatico.msn.ca/OddNews/ContentPosting.aspx?contentid=03476d21cc0a40d48a25afdacd69e8fd&show=False&number
=0&showbyline=True&subtitle=&detect=&abc=abc

((sorry link line was too long, just add that last part in))
like what .... !!? It'd be an odd place for an 'image' ........ wow I guess virgin Mary has protected the passageway ................. ?? Truly peculiar. Seems to attract a crowd ... yikes.

interesting how something like that sparks attention ...

hippo birdie two ewe?

2005-04-21T02:26:00.000-02:00

Okay, end of day ... and I finally figured out this blogger mogger togger stuff. What a day. Hmmm what did it hold? Endless calculations and diagram drawings. Whoopee. Honestly, I think people could recognize me as a regular at the reserves. Anyway, I guess a blah day could match up to a fun day tomorrow.

Yay, tomorrow! The digits change to a declaration of 2 decades. Okay okay, I do look forward to it. Now let's see ... what to wear ... *looks at her superhero wardrobe*

blank wha -- ?

2005-04-20T16:48:00.000-02:00

Ok, so today's my new start of blogging ... and why? Meh, sure why not ... it may be good to journal in some of my random thoughts. My mind is a bit shot today. It's funny how even though I'm feeling blank today ... I just had the urge to ... blog ....

*scratches head in wonder*

Has anyone watched Boobah before? The new teletubbie forces of energy show? They can benddd quite low with their huge bubbly tummys.